Maybe that’s enlightenment enough: to know that there is no final resting place of the mind; no moment of smug clarity. Perhaps wisdom…is realizing how small I am, and unwise, and how far I have yet to go.
― Anthony Bourdain
It’s said that up to 60% of the adult human body is water. We arrive from wombs, are placed in arms, raised in cribs, twin beds, master rooms. We work the sedentary office job, start journals that are left half-empty, live under moons in noisy cities. We fall in love. We fall out of ourselves. We keep walking until our feet touch the sea. And that architecture—that 60% of oceans and rivers and puddles of rain—reminds us that we are made of everything around us. Everything is connected to everything else.… ...continue reading
The bright moonlight illuminated Old Roy’s body as it lay splattered across the two-lane country highway. The car had not even slowed. It struck him without consequence and left him lying on the pavement. A pickup truck, following closely, hit him again—skin, bone, and hair pasted to the road. Only his scaly tail remained recognizable. Neither vehicle took notice of the prominent, unambiguous signpost: “Opossum Crossing.”
I slipped under the barbed wire fence, waddled across the field, and into the wood with a heavy heart, dreading the prospect of breaking the news to Henrietta and her joeys. Not a week went by without the community being hard hit by a fatality or two. Mostly, the very young or very old fell victim to the speeding machines, their blinding headlights making escape nearly impossible.… ...continue reading
All day long my phone has been ringing.
Like an insect rubbing its legs together
to sing. Calls coming in from area codes
I don’t recognize. No one there when I answer.
All day long it has been ringing.
Like a bird who only remembers one song.
I miss the days when it could be quieted
by gently placing it back in its cradle
instead of having to stab at it with my finger
over and over again. No one there when I answer.
It didn’t used to be like this. I used to sleep
through the night. Not now. Now I wake up
every two hours thinking I hear my mother
thumping her cane on the floor after a fall,
and when I open my eyes I never recognize
the room I’m in.… ...continue reading
Paul can hear the sound of the fairground rides a little way away. There’s shouting from the pikeys trying to get the dodgems working so they can spin the pretty girls around. Closer, there’s his mates kicking the ball about, the girls lathering themselves up with oil hoping to get brown. He’s aware that there’s chatter but Paul can’t hear what they’re saying. He could if he wanted to, but he doesn’t want to right now. He likes the sound of the waves gushing in and out, the seagulls cawing obnoxiously. It’s nice here. He feels safe.
Paul’s mouth is dry and his throat is tight as though he’s been smoking cigarettes, except he hasn’t and he doesn’t understand why this always happens to him. He’s hungover.… ...continue reading
A sunset is not supposed to be sinister. But as we sat on a blanket on the beach in Dennis Port looking up at a giant orange quivering on the horizon, I didn’t experience awe or wonder or transcendence. Only alarm. The waning sun reinforced in my drained soul what the heavens already knew: Humans were just another species. If Jo destroyed me, the cosmos would not know or care.
Jo was not alarmed, however, having forgotten, as he tended to do, the most recent expression of his detestation for me. No, instead, he sat transfixed, no doubt bursting with spiritual stirrings inside.
There was any number of friends I could have taken on my few days at the beach, none of whom would have put me through the dicer this holiday had been.… ...continue reading
I didn’t know who he was when we went to his museum. My family told me his name, but I didn’t understand the meaning behind it. I just remember finding his name really funny. I rolled the r dramatically and shimmied my shoulders whenever I repeated it back to them. My family found it funny too, because I was around five years old, and this guy was way, way before my time. But we made the trip to that museum anyways. My family figured they should teach me about him. He was a great performer after all.
The first building had all of his cars lined up. They were beautiful ones too. I wish I could tell you all the details, but I can’t remember much.… ...continue reading
……………………..The garden abandoned, soil hardened
…………..to brick, the seasons of my mother’s hearted cabbage
blown by full and quick as a song.
……………………..Once she fed me, and once I was young
…………..enough to be fed. My bowl now waits
blank as a page, porcelain made of bone ash
……………………..and brittle teeth. Here memory I pull along,
…………..red slatted wagon I can’t cut loose.
But where else is there to look? Bodies gone
……………………..cold, my hands even colder, the cursive
…………..of her hair on the pillow a fortune
I can’t decipher. Some people glide toward their fates
……………………..like a bride through a bloomed trellis.
I press my lips to their trains.
– Sandra Yee… ...continue reading