in words before I sleep
By Ava Chen
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Tomorrow night, I cry as activity instead of catharsis.
This little bloodstained duvet twisted between my bruises.
Why are you still here? A bleached monochrome dance
I bore into at every cusp between late night and early
morning. The Notes app dream journal woven in
half-delirium, half-life, but within is what may have
truly passed, if there is such a thing. Such is the pied
piper of evening sky: are the transient pinpricks above
liminal windshield dust or celestial negative space?
This is why I shake Descartes’ hand; a pretense.
Grip his palms gurney-white as my blackened soles
demarcate love from convenience; dissonance from
flesh. A too-sterile chain of suspicion stretches half a
link before evanescing amorphous, bits of iron and
thought drifting upwards my guttural ceiling light.
– Ava Chen