“Intimacy unhinged, unpaddocked me.” – Diane Seuss

I am like Roethke’s bulb in a florist’s root cellar
rotting and extending sprout simultaneously,
searching for light with only a few minutes in my pocket.
They say Susan Boulet’s painting, Playing with the North Wind,
is her goodbye to the world—death and beauty laced together
in a blue bundle as though they are not different from each other.
This countdown nonsense is maddening, little indicators
flashing on as the body wears down—walking slower
to the mailbox to retrieve advertisements for things
I don’t need—where’s enlightenment—where’s the euphoria
of climax—that warm endorphin wave—rush of hush
and open-mouth kisses—all gone now—even memories
abandon me—wave goodbye as they lift above the frozen horizon
in Boulet’s painting—a fine faded star in the west.

– Terry Miller

Author’s Note: This poem was written as an ekphrastic homage to artist Susan Boulet. Sometimes, we’re not only remembered by how we lived our lives, but also by how we said goodbye.