I was two weeks recovered
when the nest first appeared,
buried in my hanging mint.
More people stopped by:
blew quick breaths and the bird
came home to nest.
First two eggs, then three,
then a sepia-splattered four
hidden deep in the twined pine.
Laid while white women cried
black wolf, an old myth breaking
through so many glass screens.
Then we forgot, fucked seriously
with mouths and I bargained
with god and I cried
after the death of G.F.
whose name isn’t mine to say.
We left for Birmingham
and worried they wouldn’t hatch
or worse – would be stolen by some
Cuckoos, smashing crystalline
brown ovum splattered
on the familiar cement patio.
When we returned, the birds were born
and the riots had begun.
– Alyssa Ross…
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Before the men came through and struck her bald, my mother said, the mountain had been verdant. Green snakes had capered in shadows beneath great green oaks, beetles had squirmed in the wet cavities of overturned rocks. My mother said that there had been whitetail deer that had drunk from streams, that there had been bears in summer and coyotes in spring and turkeys in autumn. My mother told me that this had once been a land alive.
I do not know how true her stories were.
All I know is what I see when I crest the hill, through the arch of two great tree branches that have long been stripped of their leaves and their bark.
And what I see is thus:
Sitting alone atop a hill, behind a house that has raised generations, is the bald and sandy face of a carved-out mountain top.…
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It was a bitter cold night in March 2015 when a certain sage-grouse female’s (SGF) life changed forever. That night she was designated “SGF4601” and thereafter, her movements would be closely monitored for the rest of her life. After being gently captured, she was fitted with a GPS “backpack” and released. Until her death four years later, her life was scrutinized by biologists, adding to our understanding of sage-grouse behaviors and their habitat. –Morelli, “A Year in the Life of an Idaho Sage-Grouse”
When I awoke, I was different. Or the world I lived in had changed. Or both.
Something was behind me, over me, on me. I could not see it, but I could feel it covering me so I knew it was there—something with a thin, hard-edged shape that I could not slip free of or away from, try as I might.…
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and when it touches down, all the meteorologists call it unprecedented.
I wonder when they stopped watching the news and only reported it. No one remembers
how to cry. Is it true that a single generation of monarchs make the return trip north?
That to step on one will change the future? How then, do I
translate the capsized boats? The shadeless neighborhoods? The wooden boxes
made to hold a child? Some days, I think about pockets
lined with milkweed and hemlock. Other days, I follow an old trail
across Texas to scoop sunflower seeds from my grandmother’s hands.
– Amanda Roth…
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I was twenty-two when I drove to the storage unit where my best friend’s belongings were. She was also twenty-two, although unlike me, permanently twenty-two. It had been less than two months since her death, and already a new year. I was there to help her mom sort through her things and empty the unit. On the day we drove there to clear it out, the persistent rain had paused. It was the first day that week without torrential downpour.
We arrived that Friday afternoon at the All-Size to assess the situation. The building consisted of long hallways leading into doorways, a dark motel of belongings. Located on the second floor, the unit was positioned between what felt like endless rows of others. We had an hour before closing to enter the locker and plan our attack.…
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It was very early in the morning when I caught the bus. Afraid I wouldn’t make it on time, I left my apartment an hour early. I took the most circuitous route to the bus stop; call me old-fashioned, but I find relying on my instincts at the pitch of stress to be much more reliable than aimlessly trusting my phone to lead the way. Even if I have to rush through alleys overhung with baby-orange clouds of aurora, through obscure neighborhoods, or through streets mostly deserted but for the occasional silhouette in a top hat who would cross the street from afar to avoid passing by me, I still feel at greater ease at least knowing how I got to where I needed to go.…
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The bootlegger’s is a pinched, dim shack, surrounded by brush, set adrift from a wiry dirt road that’s barely perceptible from the main artery. But the boy could find his way to it in the darkest dark, so familiar is the beaten path that leads to the shack’s wooden, whining door. He would never venture alone to this place, a place that renders his stomach watery with dread; he goes because his heart is strung taut to his father, a man who treats the shack like a ruinous mistress.
Today, it’s just before noon, and there are only four people in the bar, because it’s a Sunday morning and it’s too early in the day for a drink for most. The bartender Jenny is wearing a peachy-pink lipstick that makes her skin seem sallow rather than enlivened, and though the boy knows she’s younger than most of the people he sees in this place, there is something aged about the way her eyes recede behind thick circles of black makeup.…
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