My son called to say they had set a date for the wedding. Then, he told me it would be held in south-central Pennsylvania. Wedding costs being what they are in the metro New York/New Jersey area, my future daughter-in-law scouted out venues that were more in line with their casual, non-city style and more close to being a smidgeon sane in price. It didn’t hurt that the venue was only an hour or so away from where her family lives. My son and his then fiancé were happy with the venue she found. So, I was, too.
As a mom, I want to support my children. I cheer them on. I confirm their excitement. And so I did exactly that when he told me we’d be heading for Wrightsville, Pennsylvania.…
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It’s a bitter moment when you realize the best and sweetest parts of you are gone. My hollow eyes in the rearview mirror are a firm reminder of that. Have I ever been happy? Maybe when I was a kid. So, I put my sad eyes back where they belong, on the empty road ahead.
In the midst of feeling sorry for myself, I think I missed the turn. Whatever.
The navigator says the highway entrance is zero-point-five miles away. But the on-ramp is a thick red string attached to a blinking light that reads: accident.
“Guess I’m gonna be late for the party,” I mumble to myself.
The navigator blinks: Alternate route found, and I press to proceed. Cortège Rd next Right.
Incoming call.…
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A refusal:
burnt and grounded,
blunt, unfounded, to set
aggression alight.
Breakfast is deserved.
Are you going to
bring it back to the kitchen
before you dismantle your nearest orifice of
all bored holes;
burrowing bacteria in those empty sockets?
After last week’s surgery, it’s
best we
buy our deaths from the government.
Accepted, though only apathetically, amazingly.
But still, we stopped at a Wendy’s…
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Izzy’s brow pushes up and she smiles. I made this for you, she says. She passes him a thin brown paper bag. The professional sleeve sort of bag with a smooth sheen.
Awesome, Jude says. The sleeve makes a crackling sound as he unfurrows it. He draws from it a parchment paper. The paper is thick and impressed with ink. Thank you, he says as he studies the parchment.
I did it in my printmaking class, she says. She cranes her neck forwards and nods. She was a sophomore in art school.
He’s not much older. It’s wonderful, he says, flicking on the dome light above to make sense of the lines, as he sits in the passenger seat of her parked car.
There’s like, boars, and they’re trying to eat the woman’s face.…
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Her favorite daydream puts her on the beach at sunset, her body slowly releasing the heat of a long afternoon. “This is how a clay pot must feel,” she tells herself. “When it is just released from the kiln.” And then she laughs, in her dream, an airy, lilting laugh that drifts slowly away across the incoming waves. Seagulls twist and arc in an impossibly blue sky, their aerial acrobatics set to some ballet music just outside the range of human hearing. They shorten into specks, then disappear, far out to sea, before materializing again in another segment of the horizon.
There is a dog, of course, for what is a daydream about the beach without some mongrel in need of grooming, dashing into the surf to rescue a broken stick? …
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I sold a book the other day. I’ve sold literally, no exaggeration, millions of books in 45 years as a bookseller, but this was a unique event; this time it was a book I had written.
I was in Green Apple Books, the one on Clement Street, the original. My wife, Judy, and I trade books with them all the time, which is one of the advantages of living in the Richmond District of San Francisco; the bookshop once voted the World’s Best is also our neighborhood bookseller. Back in December when my book first came out, Kevin, one of the partners, and a friend I’ve known and sporadically worked with over the decades, had been kind enough to take some copies of my book on consignment and display them in the store.…
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I find myself
stepping on ants
just because I can—
something I haven’t done
since I was seven.
There is a “For Sale” sign
in the manicured lawn
belonging to the maroon house
on 347 Maroon Court.
There are moving boxes
stacked neatly in the garage,
strangers trampling down the white carpet
with their shoes still on,
strawberries growing in garden beds
that will ripen in time
for fresh lips,
and lights being flicked
on and off
by the hands of those
who have no idea
that the hallway light
only turns on
when the garbage disposal is off.…
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