Florida Junes sweat you to the bone
Ichetucknee means big water or gift from God
heat like this I don’t know how you wear clothes
I got to sleep naked I got to
swear to God the chinaberry never quits
the cicada radio never quits in Florida Junes
crape myrtles pop their one trick
pink petals and paper buds die midair
Nature is a one trick pony if you ask me
Skylar slips off her aqua kimono…
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Metaphysics
One of the things I do is think of scenarios that would make you unattractive to me. It makes this life I’m in, the one where I love you, more bearable.
You don’t suffer in these imaginings, you merely transform in one way or another in your sleep and wake to be a different you, a you I can treat normally. I fear the descriptions of these transformations you’d find offensive and insensitive, since most often they are of an aesthetic nature, exposing my simplicity and lack of nuance. I’ve never been able to find beauty in the grotesque, for instance.
But your capacity to empathize with a variety of types is a quality I’ve always admired. Sometimes, in my scenarios, you wake without this quality.…
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The ocean dries up when I touch it. Fish and algae disintegrate; every drop of salt water seeps into sand. Emoto says it’s my negative energy, that the waves would rather go bare than be exposed to me. I don’t know the ocean’s feelings. And it doesn’t care to know mine: I’ve given up looking for my notice of its departure. All I know is the little girl inside me, and the apologies I keep giving her. I write sorries in handwriting she doesn’t know as her own. I’m a stranger to her now. Her tiered dresses hang dusty in my closet, gray around the seams. The mole on my forehead mirrors hers, and, to her disappointment, the scar on her fingertip still hasn’t faded. I try to tell her about the science of nostalgia, about sensory stimuli and chronological remoteness.…
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The woman did not survive but the child did; her fall was cushioned by the body of her godmother, who hit the ground first. The young godmother, frozen in flight, knows exactly what is happening—her arms are extended as if they could possibly break her fall—the baby, upright but looking down in disbelief as the disassembling fire escape cascades alongside them, a collage of iron fragments racing them to earth, potted plants in accompaniment. Smoke can be seen creeping and curling like fog over the edge of the rooftop.
I had first seen the photograph—really a series of photographs: the photographer was using his motor drive—while in college, in a class called “Media and Memory” or something very like it. It fulfilled my second history requirement.…
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I didn’t hear the thunder. I may have felt it, swelling in air and buffeting close to me. Saw skies, shades of grey and purple, colors of bruises healing. I lay on my back, seagrass wisping dryly over me. Waves broke behind where I lay, spray hazing over skin, numbing me with cold. I couldn’t pinpoint the pain. It seemed centred on a hip as if I’d dislocated a bone. Scents of brine floated across me as if someone held smelling salts under my nose. I couldn’t move.
“Are you okay?” she said next to me. “Thought you were dead. My boyfriend’s calling an ambulance.” She bent down, gusting wind layering hair like bandages over her face.
I’d noticed it coming. The freshly turned earth smells, odor of downpours on steaming ground, rain angling, swishing through leaves and across bitumen roads radiating the day’s heat.…
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Harry was tall and thin, elegant looking, silver-white hair; an older man, maybe 55 but what did I know? I was 13, maybe 14. It was hard to tell how old adults were. My father’s name was Harry so maybe that was why I felt safe with him. He started talking to me on the subway and I immediately responded, telling him how I wanted to be an actor, how I was coming home from rehearsal. Then it turned out we lived on the same block on the lower east side of Manhattan. Made sense. That’s why we were on the same train.
My father was fat and ugly, a mean man and it showed on his face. He hated me, hated that I was an actor.…
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Look, her almost bare stems bows away from glass,
casting charms and spells so you’ll face the glass.
Leaning towards light, this one expects you to play
like some little girl who’s not encased in glass.
Green, sharp and strict, still hoping. A soft sway
lights the words she needs to explain the glass.
Crossed as a sword, daring, calling today
shyly—come closer to her. She’ll tame the glass.
Commanding light to kiss her, calling May
out of April, she flies to perfectly shade the glass.
Almost straight as a delicate mast, gay
as a face card, reflecting the spray of glass.
Gather them all and mark their place—
Softly, gentle, careful not to break the glass.
– Mark J. Mitchell…
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