I became a gargoyle in the Summer of 2022.
The neighbors used to call me the girl in the window, but that is no longer who I am. So much time has passed since that I imagine there is no one left that has ever known me in my original state. I didn’t expect it to happen, didn’t think such a thing could happen, but I should have known there would be some consequences to my sitting hunched over the windowsill for endless hours upon hours. I should have known there would be consequences to my life.
I had been occupying a small room in Paris, in an apartment on Rue de la Tour, not far from the Trocadero and close to the Cimitiere du Passy.…
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I don’t think I could have heard the shot; our houses were too far apart. But something woke me up in the middle of the night, and while I tossed and turned trying to go back to sleep, I began hearing sirens. I wasn’t thinking about the disturbance the next morning as I came up to Glen Boyd’s house. Glen and I aren’t really friends, but we frequently walk to school together.
Today, as I approached his house, I saw two police cars and a group of neighbors hanging around outside. One of the women in the group was crying loudly “Juanita killed Doral,” she kept saying over and over. “Oh, my God, I can’t believe it. She killed him.” Juanita was Glen’s mother, I knew, and Doral his father.…
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Trains don’t collide but intersect
when / where she stopped leaving early
and I stopped not working.
Work? Left me without stories.
It’s not amnesia but condominium life,
lights fluorescing off stage,
desert sky with half the stars.
My God, it’s full of snow!
When one is 1 plus the product
of all lesser primes,
where to hide but the imaginary line?
– Kenton K. Yee
Author’s Note: Recently, I’ve been thinking about poetry in revision. One way this poem can be read is as an ars poetica. “Snow Condominium” views a poem as a condominium of snow that’s being reimagined and restructured. …
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The last time Christine-Ann Corbin wore a dress was two months ago when she turned twelve. Her parents had a small birthday party and celebrated with a few friends and neighbors. The conversation quickly turned to the unrest in Europe.
Little Falls, Vermont, was exactly as its name revealed in the early summer of 1914, a small town of a few thousand inhabitants dependent on the many waterfalls to drive old flour mills and Hadley’s Metal Fabrications, the biggest employer, where her father worked. Hadley’s built fenders for the automobile market, and earlier in the year won a contract to fabricate them for the Army.
On this particular day, Christine prepared herself for another “conversation” with her mother about her refusal to wear a dress, something her teachers were increasingly unsettled over.…
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sketch the ridge waiting
for sunset, light beaming
behind cumulonimbus,
……………but I can’t get the trees right.
wildfires glare from the west
shroud us in haze, but the blue shadow
of sierra still towers
…………………………when the sky blackens,
…………………………the stars pierce
…………………………& I still haven’t seen one fall
finish the sketch from a photograph,
the memory of actually being
just out of reach, perfect days
blur at the edges.
…………………………sketch in pen
…………………………it forces deliberation
……………where you hesitate, where you’re firm,
……………trace it all from the beginning,
…………………………………..enamored with the possibility
…………………………………..that ink will bleed
…………………………………..when coffee spills
……………………………..I carve
the layer of dirt on my skin
underglaze on clay,
…………………………trace a finger
…………………………a print on sunburn
…………………………the light lusters.…
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Efforts to locate next of kin had failed. Only the gravediggers and I stood in the ancient cemetery among the mounds of exhumed plots encircled by high-rise apartment buildings blocking the morning sun.
Otis murmured something about a skeleton crew. The others laughed and leaned on their shovels. I checked my watch—already a quarter after. The media would not be coming. I nodded to Otis. He climbed aboard the gravedigger, started its engine, and steered it over to the sunken rectangle. The claw descended and scooped up its first load of dirt.
Ten years ago, the Cremation Initiative had provoked fierce controversy. Exhumations were slow in the beginning until media attention declined, and the citizenry moved on to other concerns. A few grieving families made feeble protests, but disinterments proceeded at an ever-swifter pace, creating a boom for the cremation business, columbaria, and real estate companies, which scooped up the properties for development.…
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Act 1. You and me
Filets of trout perfectly browned in warm butter beside a quartered lemon slice on two Wedgewood plates. A carrot-sculpted rosette. Two glasses of rosé. Brown, yellow, blue, orange, red passion. “I’ll have iced tea; she’ll have water.” The server left us alone to hold hands in the flickering light of a candle, the shape of light caressing your face like breezes rustling a redbird’s feathers.
Act 2. Her
I just want someone. Why can’t I find someone? They come in here every week, sit at the same table, hold hands, never see me, see only each other, like I’m a distant noise, a car crash in some other neighborhood, a solar flare whose eruption won’t affect their climate-controlled environment, a damned iceberg calving, dissolving into the sea, disappearing into atoms small enough to be carried on the waves of their love sighs.…
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