There is a joyful terror to writing, to scratching an itch that doesn’t want to be scratched but must be if any comfort is to be sort. Writing is an abject feeling that, before the act, leaves one hollow-mouthed and begging.
What lies in the undergrowth of our lives can be felt without words, in emotions that appear more like atmospheres superimposed upon the world than anything factual or real.
Words have a pleasure that’s hard to deny. A putting down that solidifies on one side while opening up on the other. And what’s on the other side but endless interpretation, a hinterland of fragments and dreams left up to readers to stitch together with the resources of their minds.
What is so terrifying is the fact that one’s words may appear faulty, lack-luster, or clichéd; that your innermost world is riddled with soap-opera fantasies whose presence on the page expose one’s own faulty mechanisms of imagination. But is it really originality that we seek in our writing?…
i) it looks, at first, like a place we’ve been before, that stray silence where things unravel and we begin, shaky breaths and cautious hands negotiating space, souls spilling onto the floor, making the carpet moist.
ii) we move to the rhythm of each other delicately, careful to avoid eye-contact. we convince ourselves a glimpse of the unknown would be the last thing to save a life. go on closing your eyes, darling, walk into bright rooms with the blindfold on.…
Author’s Note: People have a tendency to have stronger reactions when taken out of their comfort zone. If a person can read my poems and say, ” That’s exactly how I feel,” then I think my job as a writer is only partially done.…
C.M. Crockford is a Philadelphia writer with poetry, genre fiction, and criticism published in No Recess Magazine, Oddball Magazine, and Dead Gothic Resurrected, among other zines and journals. His work has also appeared in Nasty Women & Bad Hombres: A Poetry Anthology.
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