I’ve been thinking of you lately. I’m sorry our relationship ended as it did. We were so sympatico, always in the same orbit, my sun to your moon. Remember when we walked the Plaza that April day? We stopped for ice cream, some of the chocolate dripping down your chin. I wiped it off with my sleeve so your white dress wouldn’t smear. Pretty gallant, huh? We laughed about your job as a hairdresser and the weird people you’d meet, that dude with a mohawk and nose rings, the chick with seven colors of hair like a mood ring gone psycho, the grandma with blue hair and perm ringlets so tight her brain was starved for thought. Are you still working there (I can’t imagine why)?…
Here I am longing for what will never be taken apart by an unbearable discontent
happiness goes away humankind spending too much time on a terrible story
it’s likely going to be ugly it’s likely too that it’s either absurd choices or a heinous tomorrow an increase of this accidental tragedy blinded by the promises of heaven
easily taken in I am despite the rumors of the curtain calls without being seen after years of this
I’m not myself as kids learn to twitch there is no second chance
Paradise, you should know, is but a version of our world where everything is just as it should be; hereabouts brooks flow through lush meadows frequented by hovering hummingbirds and butterflies flitting between flowers as dark-eyed houris, virginal but nubile, splendidly endowed, outstretch and sun themselves on lawns or rove vineyards, ready and eager to ensorcell newcomers with their wiles and charms, with figures sinuous and sensuous, lovely to behold.…
The echo of shackles in motion filled the room with a searing tension. “Kneel,” a guard commanded as he forced it down. The king’s eyes widened in a mix of wonder and terror as he gazed upon what knelt before him. Or, as it felt, what didn’t. It was emptiness in the form of a human body. What knelt before him felt not like a creature, but the lack of one—an inky void from head to toe with the exception of its eyes, like an inferno condensed and solidified into the form of eyeballs.
“What is this?” the king questioned.
“It was found in the walls, no explanation as to how it got in.”
“Who are you? What are you doing here?” the king asked the creature with a tone that held an initial strength, but weakened with every proceeding second of silence.…
Teenagers filled the auditorium, dressed in preppy uniforms. Cheerleaders appeared on stage. They danced to pop hits of vintage hits, B*Witched’s “C’est la Vie,” Mandy Moore’s “Candy,” and Spice Girls’ “Spice Up Your Life.”
The cheerleaders yelled, “We got spirit. How about you?”
Students would yell back, “Yeah, we got spirit. Yes, we do.”
Ezra sat with headphones, unbothered. He had big, funky tortoiseshell glasses and wore a tie and shirt, contrasting his alternative vibe. He listened to the Smashing Pumpkins’ “Muzzle” with the volume way up to drown out the bubble gum pop. It could have worked better. It made a weird smashup between Mandy Moore and the Smashing Pumpkins. Ezra took a bite of his Twix bar, hoping it wouldn’t break a bracket or twist the braces wires.…
The Sun tries to say hello, but bid her farewell, she’s not welcome here. The darkness soothes the sound of the feral bird rapidly flapping its wings, beating against its bone cage. It’s exhausted and wounded. But it aches to hurt even more. Shaking its cage. Left. Right. Up. Down. Trapped. It’s too much for the bones to bear. As the Sun shines light on the imperfections of the world. The Moon’s wickedness caters to the feral bird’s craters. This is what it comes down to: always sleeping my days away. This is what it comes down to. Trying to keep the feral bird at bay.
Author’s Note: “Escaping the Feral Bird” represents the internal chaos of anxiety and depression. The “feral bird” is a symbol of the frantic, relentless thoughts that cage you, leaving you exhausted and trapped.…
